Gyaru Shoot... Kinda...

So here are the highlights from my recent GAL/gyrau adventures! Need more info on what it is! Check out this link!

http://gyaru.startje.com/

This site has the Japanese and Foreign model and GAL blogs as well as pictures and tutorials galore! So just explore!

I'm waiting on my hair cut until after my trip to see my grandparents, but its mostly just getting layers so I can backcomb!!!

PICTURES!

I'm still far from being true gyaru but this is a start!!!!

Anchors Aweigh!

Okay... so that's technically Navy... but long story short. Reagan's ship left today... well last night to be precise... so they are now somewhere in the Atlantic... and my main hope... that the stupid man stays warm enough!

I did hear news that there are plans to make this trip as short as possible so he maybe back by the end of January!!! I'm so excited! But as everyone knows... nothing ever really goes the way you want it to in the military... but still less of a damper on my holidays!

It's Christmas Eve and its gonna be a little sad tomorrow but I'm thankful that my family and friends will be around to distract me to some extent... I'm sad though cause Reagan forgot to take the little Christmas tree I sent him along with him... humph. Oh well he remembered the important part his gift... which I really hope he likes and can enjoy while he is on the ship... well that's about it.

Tomorrow also look forward to an outfit post, I've been working on my gyaru style and I'm getting better, slowly... but better!

Tidings of Comfort And Joy

WHEW! There is five days till Christmas... and my shopping is done, my stuffing, wrapping, tying, packing, bubble-wrapping, boxing, taping and post office waiting is... DONE! I'm offically set for Christmas... but I just can't get in the mood.

We set up our Christmas Tree today, it is lovely as ever and I was happy to put my latest Gone With The Wind Series ornament up (I've collected like all of them... I just need the green dress Scarlett in porcelian!) and the tree looks great! All the presents are yet to be under it but they will be arriving shortly I'm sure. And yet I still am wincing when Christmas songs come on the radio.

I think the main reason for this is Reagan's impending "trip", it isn't REALLY a full deployment but it sure feels like it. He's left Camp LeJeune as of Friday and has said that the "boat" leaves for "somewhere East" sometime this upcoming week... my guess based on something he let slip... Christmas Eve... now if that doesn't blow bricks of fruitcake then I don't know what does....
Granted OPSEC won't let me say anymore! SSSHHH!!

But basically he will be gone until February maybe March... which means these are the holiday firsts we will be missing, Christmas, New Years, his 25th Birthday, and Valentine's Day... and I will tell you now my hot coccoa is gonna need a lot of peppermint schnapps to get me through.... I know I signed up for this and I shouldn't complain because he will be back with me sooner than many of the women in my situation, I will only go without seeing him for now four-ish months... they haven't seen their Marines in a year... my hopes are always with them! SEMPER FI!

But at the same time... those women get to live with their men, I will be honest, that living in hotel rooms is just getting exhausting, I do it enough when I travel with my parents... I don't need it with my boyfriend if I can help it...

However on the plus side, if he comes back in March we started talking about my Spring Break and maybe planning a week get-a-way for our one year anniversary, somewhere, where neither of our families or friends is.... wouldn't that be nice?

Anyway back to the holidays... I think I'm going to now make some hot chocolate and park my butt in front of A Christmas Story and Love Actually... until I'm literally exhaling Christmas.... I do love this season, it is just a very tightrope love.... conditions have to be right....

PS: But thankfully Reagan will have a tree, I sent him a tiny one (he loved it) with his Christmas gift and special Christmas Cookies... so he can sorta have a Christmas... cause his family probably won't get around to sending gifts since they thought they were going to see him.... okay I'm not going there... *toodles away*

Embroider My World!

So instead of doing my homework... as usually I've gotten distracted and the product of today's distraction Reagan's gift for WHEN (Not IF) he gets promoted to full Corporal!! It won't be for sure of course... he still has to make the board but he's been working so hard and his superiors want him to get it so keep your fingers crossed... anyway... the gift. He is always asking me "So where's that pinup you promised me?" I had at one time told him I would like to to a vintage pinup style photoshoot with and I foolishly told him he could have a few of the shots... but until I can locate a willing photographer... he will have to settle for this. Besides the bunk in his barracks is so drab it could use a little feminine touch!

THE PATTERN! I'm pretty sure the detail stitching on the face and logo will kill me!

30 Soles: Special Travel Edition!

So last week I returned from the Carribbean. Grand Cayman in the British West Indies as a matter of fact! It was a most wonderful family trip and was absolutely beautiful! So in honor of that. A selection of the footwear from that trip!

UP FROM UNDER! I was barefoot bound on Monday! As my sister and I floated 450 ft. above the crystel blue ocean. I wish I could have taken a camera up in the parasail... but alas water and electronics do not mix well I'm afraid. It was such a wonderful experience to be up high with a bird's eye view and the boat pulling us fit just under my little toe!!

UNDER THE SEA! Tuesday came with a suprise! Another barefoot day and I spent the morning with stingrays, swimming feeding holding and occasionally stumbling upon one. Imagine slipping your foot over very fine sandpaper and then bumbling like a toddler into the water as a ray the size of a bed pillow swims up from under the sand where you were just standing. It is quite the experience. I love the extra contact with nature through my toes!

WHAT ARE THEY CALLED? OH FINS! Wednesday and Thursday were days of snorkeling and exploring more of Carribbean under water. So quiet and so beautiful! And I armed with my little flippers had the time of my life in the water but it's always odd to step back onto the sand awkwardly. I now know how penguins and ducks feel!

TOES IN THE SAND... COLD DRINK IN MY RIGHT HAND! When these day's adventures ended I was thankful for a warm sandy beach... and I'm proud to say that I think my toes are into a very deep love affair with the sand and sun!

So next time you hit the beach don't wear shoes!! It's much more intimate that way!

Passport Pressure!

Okay so I'm sitting in the lobby of our wonderful resort in the Cayman Islands and unfortunately this blog is not an altogether happy one... I mostly want to get a few things off my mine.

NAMELY Reagan.... with international calling here in the islands I am unable to call him nor he I and I can recieve his texts but can't send anything back without a charge. Also as this is a family vacation my times as to when I can be online are restrictive... to say the least. And lord knows I can't have him beside me so sleep is pretty rough. Perhaps a family trip right after a "boyfriend" trip was not the best thing to do....

I'm trying to enjoy this vacation I REALLY am! Its just that what I was afraid of is happening. I mean I have fun doing things but there's that gnawing "Gosh I wish Reagan was here with me now." or "Reagan would love this" and such. It's driving me nuts not being even able to talk to him! As if I don't miss him enough as it is. Thank god we aren't having to deal with a deployment I'd be pulling my hair out. Anyway back to the point. This vacation is supposed to be fun and relaxing and all I feel is mostly mild irritation with my family and lonliness. Nothing like sitting ina resturant looking at the table across seeing a couple and unfairly wishing your dinner company was more to your liking. THEY ARE MY FAMILY! And while my sister and I have had some fun and laughs... I just want to be with someone else. I feel suffocaited by my family right now. Maybe I should have followed my gut and not gone on this trip. Reagan and I would be snuggled up in front of the fire at my house right now... but the choice is made. He is just soo distracting!!! I hate it!!

Do these feelings make me whiny, selfish or just flat out insane. I mean I should be enjoying my time with my family but HE's all that's in my head. I love my family but I think I'm getting ready to start living my own life and he is a HUGE part of it right now... and obviously something I consider vital... And as I type this I keep cursing him in my head for not being online. All I've heard from him since arrival is "hey babe, hope you're having an awesome time...." I wish I could tell him about the things I did today! And hear his voice I miss him soo much! Especially about the iguanas we saw all over the island today! But again here I sit. Anyway back to the room...

PS: Tomorrow... PARASAILING!!!

GRAND CAYMAN ISLAND!

So I know I missed a week now on 30 Soles and I'm doing my best, its just things got really out of hand this week so I will just extend a week into December! And there should be some new shoes to view too!

Anyway, I leave to Grand Cayman Island early tomorrow morning and chances are I won't be able to update daily! I will try though! And take pictures!

30 Soles: Under the Weather

THE SHOE: Satin black ballet flats by American Eagle

THE WHY: To be quite honest for Monday and Tuesday I didn't really care what shoes I put on. These were handy and comfy so they were slipped on my depressed and tired feet. The day or two after I get back from visiting Reagan is always the hardest. I just wanna stay in bed and keep imagining I'm curled up against his chest dozing in and out of consciousness and smelling his cologne as I drift into a cozy dreamland.... but reality is like a kick in the pants and I just don't feel motivated to get really dolled up or dress up for those few days. In fact writing these blogs has been a little bothersome... but I know how you like to read them so I faithfully post even though when it comes to this last one my heart is barely in it, and I apologize. I just would like to be elsewhere right now and not have to deal with all the drama that my schoolwork has decided to inflict upon me, but all that for another day I suppose. There is homework to be done and these tired feetsies was to head to bed early so they can begin an early day tomorrow.

TIDBIT: How I feel!

30 Soles: Inny Minny Minny Toes!

THE SHOE: This is a special post as I am posting SOCKS and not shoes... but the underwears is almost as important as the outerwears!

THE WHY: Lovely Kelly from IB in high school went to Korea over the summer and is now going to Duke! I met her and Dovina on Saturday morning for brunch with Reagan and she gave me these socks as a gift! They are cartoon representations of some of my favorite members from a Korean Pop group BIG BANG! Love their music!

TIDBIT: My favorite BIG BANG song! The english subtitles are in the top left of the screen!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=39keqjeBXH8

30 Soles: Miss! Your Slipper!

THE SHOE: White strappy leather sandal heels by Unlisted purchased at Macy's

& Patent leather standard issue dress shoes provided by the USMC

THE WHY: These shoes matched my ball gown and were just the right height for me in comparision to my man. It was finally my night to be Cinderella!! The United States Marine Corps. 234th Birthday Ball was November the 14th this past Saturday and I can't even begin to describe the wonderful time I had. It was absolutely perfect, once I had the typical female scramble to get ready and all dolled up for the event. It was at the Officer's Club at Camp Lejeune and it was wonderful to see everyone dressed to the nines! The ceremony in celebration of the birthday like many military ceremonies was very formal and well organized... but the Chaplin's prayer a tad long... I must say. And it was agonizing not having eaten for several hours and have a giant cake sitting in front of you for nearly 20minutes. After that we headed to the banquet room where a lovely dinner which included filet mignon was served! This was followed by the guest of honor a Colonel speaking on complacency in the military... motivating but perhaps a little grim for the event. After chatting with the lovely women and men at our table and a slice of delightful marble cake. Reagan and I danced the night... well until midnight away! He really only wanted to dance to the slow songs but I didn't mind in the least! It was so nice to do something as a couple for a change and be so close to him. After the ball we went out for a few drinks with some of his buddies and I got to talk more with some of the fellow girlfriends. Its wo wonderful how nice everyone is and they understand how tough being a Marine's girl can really be! I hope I've begun to grow some lasting friendships!

TIDBIT: A photo with my Prince Charming and PS: Did you spot the guest on my shoe blog!

30 Soles: Now Boarding!

THE SHOE: Black patent leather heels by FIONI


THE WHY: Friday was the day!!! I rushed through my first two classes of the day... very distracting and practially ran out the door into the falling snow at 2pm in the afternoon! It was time to hit DIA for my trip to North Carolina! I knew the flight would be a long one, but the Marine waiting at the airport 1,787 miles away was soo worth every uncomfortable, infant wailing minute! I chose my heels because Reagan whines I never wear heels around him and no wonder he's only 5'10" when he isn't slouching... and I already feel like a giant mountain woman next to him! So needless to say I gave into his whims and wore heels. It was funny because on my way there, in the airport actually I was sitting near a little girl who kept looking over at me, and as I was sipping on some juice she reached over and tapped my arm. I smiled and said "Hello." And she goes "Are you a model?" and I just smiled and said "No, I'm not" and she said "Well your really pretty! Bye!" Then got up with her mother. It was really a boosting moment. My flight was delayed because we had to be deiced leaving DIA.... when I finally arrived at Raliegh and Reagan hopped out of his Honda I couldn't have been more happy, Iwanted to cry with happiness. And after getting to the hotel for the night needless to say it was clothes off, pjs on, lights out and cuddle all night long! How glorious!


TIDBIT: The Hilton Garden Inn at Raliegh has a WONDERFUL breakfast included... all the strawberries I could eat!!

30 Soles: Let's Get Physical!

THE SHOE: Black and white indoor court tennis shoes by NIKE



THE WHY: Today is Thursday... I ventured to the gym today. Like I tend to due at least three times a week. On Tuesday I have started taking a Total Body Conditioning class at the Rec Center... it pretty much kicks my butt... utterly.... totally and completely. I come back and pass out on my cushions for a nice long nap. But today I was lucky enough to just do my running, 4miles of jogging to be more precise and my ab work... which included the use of weights. I really do love my gym time its the one time in the day where I don't have to stress about all the happenings of my life... its just me the treadmill, Japanese Death Metal.... and occasionally Oliva Newton John. Exercise certainly is a freeing experience no doubt.... but my real reason... is to get a great body for me, my man and my bikini! So cheer me on!! *hears Rocky theme playing in the background of exercise montage*



TIDBIT: I am venturing to North Carolina tomorrow so I will not be able to post more shoes until my return on Monday as I will not be taking my computer but I assure you its worth the wait!!!

30 Soles: Deja Vu We've Been Here Before

Sorry, about the multiple day updates but this week is wreaking havoc with my time management and I'm about to go nuts in anticipation for my trip to Camp Lejeune this weekend... sooo here we go!

THE SHOES:Black patent leather heels by Fioni and black vinyl ballet flats MAXI by RAVE

THE WHY: The power shoes were definately a choice for Tuesday's insecdurities. I had left the fate of a script rough draft turn in to someone who was rather irresponsible. Needless to say I made and printed my own version just in case.... granted he sorta turned in a copy. But that is a fiaso I'd rather not discuss. Needless to say I needed my power shoes to give me some courage and faith in other people... and because the only clean jeans in my closet were too long for flats!

Today's choice was simple flats I have the same pair in white, but the black ones are definately more versitile. I had my conversation partner volunteering today and it was super interesting but as always I am intimdated by some of the views and the egos of some of the middle eastern male students, and my shoe choice reflected that. Around them and many men I'm sad to say, i want to feel small and meek... not a boustrious American broad. Timid and submissive to their at times chauvanistic views. And when we talked about our dream jobs and I mentioned being a housewife they all chattered something in Arabic and when I asked what they responded "Now why can't every woman think that way!" It made me shrink in my seat a little bit. However someday I still want to visit Saudia Arabia and the Middle East... but for today I slipped away quietly in my dainty black shoes.

TIDBIT: My boyfriend is being a jerk with regards to this blog therefore upon seeing him I will proceed to throw a shoe at his head... okay no really but the thought has crossed my mind.

30 Soles: Someone order a Double Shot?!

THE SHOE (S): Black satin ballet flats by American Eagle & Black crosstrainer sneakers by Athletic Works

THE WHY: Sunday and Monday were hectic! Between work school, packing and plans for the CSU World Unity Fair (I am with the Japan Club booth) I've barely had a moment to myself! Hence why I'm combining Sunday and Monday today! There will be a shoe post for Tuesday today as well! I swear! But at the insistance of MagnificantDebra... I am posting my work shoes and what I like to call my "out of the house slippers" Both are plain and simple but they have the support to get me through the busy days! My work shoes have seen breakfast lunch, dinner and midnight snacks and icecream treats in their three years of living with me. They saw me through my assistant manager position at Dairy Queen with ten hour days on Drive Thru... and my latest job in the kitchen of the Corbett/Parmelee Dining Hall of CSU. They really are quite dirty... I should wash them.

My ballet flats have a bit of a history as well. They were my first pair of ballet flats and travelled to Hawaii, the mountains, California and North Carolina with me. I take them everywhere! They make fantastic in air shoes! So comfy and easy to slip on and off.... and not to mention adorable! The reason I wore them on Sunday and Monday... I needed a reprieve! And what a glorious rescue these shoes are!

TIDBIT: I'm letting you all know well in advance... expect some strange shoe-fellows next week! I've lined up a special guest or two!

30 Soles: Nudity! How Scandalious!

THE SHOE: Au natural

THE WHY: Well to be frank I find my work shoes to icky to post for Saturday's shoe... and after my early morning shift... I simply puttered around my room and did some hardcore homework and even more serious napping... oopsies. But it was certainly nice to let my little toes have some freedom today!!!

TIDBIT: It has been said that prime nap time is from 1:00 p.m. to 3:00 p.m., when your energy level dips due to a rise in the hormone melatonin at that time of day. Funny thats about when I had one of my naps!

Why Do People Say Such Things!!

I just saw on a facebook post attached to a video about the shooting at Fort Hood.

"FUCK YEAH! Oh... just 12.... aww almost 13"

WHY WOULD ANYONE SAY THAT!!! It's horrible! The person isn't even a citizen of the US and it just infuriates me that he could take the death of soliders... no ANYONE so lightly. Its just disgusting! His responce was simply that he doesn't "understand" the Army's reasoning for sending our loved ones to war and he doesn't "like" the US ARMY.

Well who really does adore military of any sort? No one likes war and wouldn't it be wonderful if men and women didn't have to fight and die to protect our rights and freedom or help those in need when combat is required. Granted at this point I don't agree with all the US military is doing now but I firmly believe in supporting the men and women not the political mudslinging that they are forced to defend. It take so much courage to stand and fight for your country even if you don't want to take that gun and pull the trigger. War is a nessecity in our society it seems and the least we can do is support those who stand in front of us! As the old saying goes. "If you don't stand behind our military, Stand in FRONT of them!"

Perhaps if he had made a more reasonable arguement for his actions I wouldn't be so harsh. But it just frustrates me! He also commented that the victims of the shooting weren't even dying to protect their country. AGH! I think that many people don't realize how hard the men and women who are serving on the home front work and how difficult it is to live waiting orders and trying to live a life and provide for your family with the thought of being shipped off even the next morning. It doesn't matter where they are stationed they do a job that many people just don't have the gumption to do and for that I can NEVER thank them enough!

SO A THANKS TO EVERY PERSON IN MILITARY SERVICE for doing your duty with pride! I'm so grateful!

I'm just going to post this before I get so upset I start crying.

30 Soles: Take Me To The Peep...Toe!

THE SHOE: Black and white patent leather button peep toe heel by BC (Thrift store find!)

THE WHY: You will never believe it but today it was 70 degrees! What a chance! What a day! I need no jacket and I can wear summer shoes! These are actually one of my favorite pairs of shoes! And for five dollars why not! So comfy and adorable too! What a lovely day today was! And a Friday no doubt! The day began with a dreary start... as in I worked hard at my kitchen job.... but by 11am things were looking up! Today's shoes put a lovely little spring in my step for the warm day and for the first time in a few weeks the hot pink nail polish was allowed to glow brightly in todays warm sun! And to make matters better! I did well on my Japanese exams and got a perfect score on my American Literature exam!

THE TIDBIT: Today I bring you a wonderful place for a pedicure... and Boba Tea! It is in the 16th Street Mall in Denver Colorado! The Denver Nail Lounge!

http://www.denvernaillounge.com/

30 Soles: Pitter Patter Petticoats

THE SHOE: Black vinyl ballet flats MAXI by RAVE

THE WHY: I decided for some reason that I still haven't completely worked out to dress in Lolita today. I think the main reason was that I had time after work today with little studying to do so I had time to primp. I originally was thinking on pulling out those lovely ankle boots. But the sun and the warmth filtering through my window whispered otherwise. And so I opted for a simple ballet flat which in retrospect was a wise descision so I didn't clash with my piano knee high socks. I also realized today that while I was wearing my Lolita I was beginning to realize that I am actually outgrowing the style a bit. Its just a little too childish for me, yes I like the frills for special occasions but as for an everyday look I'm thinking that its time I clip those child strings and stick to the mature style that suits my personality... but it was still a fun treat today.

TIDBIT: My outfit for the day!

30 Soles: Drop Me Into Wonderland!

THE SHOE: Patent leather pin heel tea party-esque No Boundries heel with ankle strap (And hold your breath ladies... Wal-Mart)

THE WHY: Well today's original shoe selection was a pair of black ballet flats but as this modern day Alice but despite urging of my white rabbit (my boyfriend) that I would be late if I didn't hurry it up, I couldn't resist the call of these charming little shoes. I found them by sheer chance in a Wal-Mart several rabbit holes away (Colorado Springs) and I thought well despite their normal use for my frolics into the Japanese Victorian and Rococco inspired Lolita fashion... today would be the day I would answer their cries of loneliness. And they rewarded my justly. Not only did they match the vibrant pink mini skirt I wore... with tights (its far too cold to go without) but they completed an outfit that put me in the ranks of super cute when I walked in the door to my Intensive English Program volunteering. As always IEP is quite the adventure. There are people from so many different cultures that I want to talk to more! There is a student from southern China! Maybe he will teach me how to say more then "Lei hai sofa!" (I'm winging the spelling on that one) which is "You are a silly goose!" and Reagan will surely be impressed! And another girl from Saudi Arabia who I REALLY want to talk to more about what that country is like... someday I wish to visit there I think their culture is truely an interesting one... as well as many other students!

So today my shoes took me on an interesting adventure... alas, I was not able to have tea with the Mad Hatter... perhaps my shoes will save that treat for next time!

TIDBIT: My next talent that I wish to aquire is.... Japanese Tea Ceremony! I plan on starting lessons either in December or in January!! Wish me luck!

30 Soles: Rules For White

THE SHOE: White vinyl bowfront ballet flat Maxi by RAVE

WHY: Today's shoes I felt were very fitting for a warm sunny but breezy day. That and after rushing around at work for four hours a girl definately needs some comfortable shoes. I'm sure there is some rule that says I can't wear white shoes at this point in the year but what non sense. They matched my outfit perfectly and I was inspired by Hello Kitty today so this called for bows in my hair and bows on my shoes. Funny how little white bows make everything that much better!

TIDBIT: Hello Kitty has a last name. It's Shiro... or white in Japanese. So Hello Kitty White! not quite the best ring to it ne?

30 Soles: The Power Suit

Supposed to be posted on Nov, 2nd

And Shoes to Match!

THE SHOE: Patent leather heels Fioni brand, Payless

WHY: These shoes were my choice today because I felt the need to have a little extra courage for the day. As is typical for Colorado fall... the weatherman said 45... well it was 35 and more dreary then a foggy day in London.... but mostly because I was feeling puny due to my exam today. American Literature is normally fairly easy for me but for some reason... nad I blame Emily Dickenson, I was feelinga little uneasy about this exam.

I've always felt that every woman should have one pair of shoes in thier closet that when they put them on they feel pretty unstoppable. These are my shoes. They aren't expensive or gaudy, just shiny and black, but they tell everyone that I'm going to step right up and take the challenge... and if I get dirty... its nothing a little polish can't fix. Let's hope that hols true for my exam!

TIDBIT: Mary Tudor of England was actually one of the first women to wear high heels and make the shoes in fashion for females as opposed to males who used the heel for riding.

30 Soles in 30 Days!

Yes my readers (however few of you there are) it is November the 1st and as I promised the shoe blog as commenced!

THE RULES:
Each day I will post what shoes I wore for the day and why I chose to wear them... and maybe a fun tidbit or two!

SO LET'S GET STARTED!

DAY 1: Break 'em In!

The Shoe: So today's shoes are Fioni brand from Payless Shoes!


Why?: I chose these shoes today because I purchased them on Friday with some friends... Payless had a secret (it was on Oprah) sale where you got fifty percent off your purchase! I've wanted some ankle boots and these were just too cute! I put them on on this sunny sunny November day because I wanted to break them before I debut them to the whole world! Its never a good idea to wear shoes without a test drive! And as I walked down the sidewalk this afternoon I was delighted to hear that all familiar "click.... click.... click" as that lovely narrow heel daintily tapped the ground. I glanced down and was delighted to see how small my feet appear in these shoes. I always get a smile when comfortable meets darling and danity wins the day!

TIDBIT: Here's what the boots were hiding!

What Are You?

Tonight I went to lecture on identity with Kip Fulbeck as the keynote speaker. I will openly admit that while I enjoyed myself the emotions I were feeling were probably not ones that I should have been feeling but seeing him talk really made me want to put what I’ve been stuffing under the table for years to the forefront of my thoughts… and I’m putting it out there and I don’t care if it doesn’t make a lick and stick worth of sense, hey world, you’re getting it.

Like I said they were of no surprise to me and I felt that after hearing such a moving speaker for our generation that now was the time to address my own issues with identity. His Hapa Project (http://www.seaweedproductions.com/hapa/) asks one question “What Are You?” And here’s my answer…

I am ashamed. There are days I can barely handle looking at myself in the mirror. I am white. I am embarrassed. I am jealous. I am so marginal so average and so wrong. I want to have pride in my identity but there can be no feeling in a neutral color. Everyone says race doesn’t matter, yet that is how we classify ourselves and much of our pride and self confidence comes from…. Even if we don’t want to admit it. My parents say that I am British… that I’m German… but I know I am American. I am the product of the dreamer, the tired and the hungry…but most of all I am lacking in identity. It is so wrong to take what is not mine. I selfishly take pride in my own boyfriend’s Chinese heritage. So much so that I don’t even take the respect to think of him as he wants to be known, Chinese American. His parents are Chinese… but he should be my patriot, my shining United States Marine… and yet deep down I only want to see Chinese.

I am awkward. I will never fit in where my personality wants to slip. I feel that I was unjustly placed in this skin, so fair, so pale… that CoverGirl Ivory 205. I want to scratch it off and I hope to see something darker underneath. I crave a rich culture, one with strong history, a tonal language, a sense of familial honor, duty… and a cultural iconic hero like Bruce Lee. If nothing else, for one day I want an Asian identity.

But here and now let’s face the truth of what I am. I am the she, who will wear her apron and pearls in the kitchen. I am she who is happy to darn your socks and bake you apple pie. I am she who will wait for him to come home. I am she who will iron the center crease in that uniform everyday. I am a patriotic face, because in these mere movements I can build an acceptable identity. I don’t want it, but at least it will bring temporary joy and a night when I can sleep.

Taking a Minute...

I have about five to ten minutes before I head to the gym for my daily stress buster with Sakiko, Tomoko, Mai and Sydney. It is the one hour of my day where I flat out refuse to think about anything but my exercise!! It is keeping me in better shape! Since the beginning of the semester I have lost nearly two kilograms! YAY!

Life is continuing to be difficult... I just barely got a C on my Japanese midterm... this year's grammer is just killing me! But I think once I turn in my paper for composition at the end of next week I can focus on the next big things... the USMC Ball and saving money for Japan. I get paid this Friday THANK GOD...

I mailed Reagan a cheer up package today because he got beaten in the Book Board (for promotion) by a guy who doesn't do like anything... and even if he won't admit it he really wanted to be all showy offy at the Ball with his new rank and me.... I positive that he at least partilly wanted to have it for my sake.... he's so wonderful to me.

Also his Christmas present came from Hong Kong today. I ordered his favorite Chinese Cop Drama films in a special edition boxed set... I had to get them from Asia directly because nowhere in the US had the box set...

Anyway... gotta go to the gym

Toodles....

If That Doesn't Kill Me...

Then who knows what will.

This weekend was really hard for me. A lot of days have been hard lately. I find myself having to yank harder at my motivation to get me out of bed each day. I don't know what it is... maybe I've taken on too much or maybe I lack motivation because I'm not doing enough to keep me busy enough that I don't notice... or I just don't see the point in prioritizing anymore.

I'm getting sick of all the negetive energy surrounding me there are a couple of people in particular that are partially the cause. And I don't mean just meantally sick most likely physically sick as well. I've had a cough that's hung in there till nearly week four. I'm really hoping its not the stress related sore throat that I had in high school. My stomach seems to be on the fritz as well... woo hoo. And to top it off... I burnt myself on Sunday.

But back to this weekend. It was so rough that I ended up cleaning my entire dorm room. Top to bottom side to side... I even cleaned up Chelsea's half... I scrubbed and wiped and washed and dusted... and after all that I still felt miserable and had myself a good ol' fashioned cry... you know the ugly kind with a runny nose and everything.

I'm doing my best to keep my spirits up. And Reagan is helping a little bit but it doesn't help that I talk to him and miss him and can't fall asleep easily without him anymore... I knew men were more trouble then they are worth! But I picked up my dress... the pics are on Facebook in a limited group so Reagan can't see it. I want it to be a total suprise. I'm worried about him getting his Blues though... procrastinatin....

Today he called me mid day and asked if I wanted a bunny. His friends breeds them and Reagan thought it would be a good idea to get me one for my Birthday... silly man... he was like... you could keep it at your friend's house... riiight...

But school is just frustrating... mostly my Composition class.... it takes my nerves and smashes them to a pulp... I just don't understand that class. I wrote my papers in the dark... I got a B+ but still... and it just isn't interesting to me... but I meet with my advisor soon for registration so maybe that will be nice.

I'm also worried about study abroad... it looks like I will either have to work extra... break up or at least go on hiatus with Reagan (so I don't spend the money it takes to visit) or I just can't go... because I don't want my parents to pay for EVERYTHING...

But whatever enough of that... I need to just go sleep...

What's Shakin Bacon?!

Okay so here is the deal! Life has beenmovingatarecordpaceandIjustacan'tseemto S-L-O-W I-T DOOOOOOWWWNNN!!!!!

But some good things and some updates for I think the maybe ten of you that read this...


1.I am at home this weekend... glad to have a little less stress. I went shopping with my mom today and I was SUPER thankful for all the new things she bought for me I wanted to cry. I got a new pair of jeans and a pleated skirt from Goodwill, a couple of new everyday naughties from Victoria's Secret, and two new shirts, two pairs of leggings and some socks from JC Penny's! And I got to spend some quality time with my mom which I really miss.


The things I still need to do at home are:
Make cupcakes for J-Drama tomorrow night
Finish my laundry
Make a care package
Work on my kanji journal
Research for my Japanese and maybe my Composition Paper (@o@)


2. Also while we were out today we bought some little things for my host sister Manami who is currently studying in Nevada right now. It's been a really hard term for her and I want to make her feel a little better so I got her some good Dove chocolates, a cute shirt with crowns and dots on it and a nice "thinking of you card" which I am about to write an note in Japanese in for her! I still hope she can come to visit me at Christmas break even if only for a few days but we will see.


3. Reagan has ventured to Myrtle Beach this weekend.... I will miss skyping him... unless he took his laptop which I doubt. He's supposed to be the "chaperone" while his buddies pick up girls... he doesn't like to do that or encourage their habits but there isn't really anything he can do so I feel bad cause he sorta has to sit out... but he says he doesn't mind because those girls are a dime a dozen... I on the other hand am not! :)


4. Which I also wanna thank Reagan from the bottom of my heart for putting up with my bad days... like Thursday night when I cried for literally an hour and told him all about my problems and how much I hate certain personality traits that cause me to spread myself too thin. He's such a wonderful man! I'm so glad to be in love with him!

5. I got paid Friday... yeah... so I made a payment on my glasses to my mom, and have the money for my dress (which I'm going to pick up on TUESDAY!!!) and for my credit card bill and I have half of my ticket money to paypal to ya Phen! (Sorry I had an expense that was larger then I was expecting)

6. I wanna thank Sydney for taking the exchange students to the airport!! I sooo owe you for it! Would you like IHOP or a manicure?????

PS: THE SHOE BLOG IS GOING TO HAVE TO WAIT TILL NOVEMBER... but you will get some SUPER exciting shoes that way!!! (The ball and a trip to Grand Cayman Island in the Carribbean!)

It's Been Awhile

So it's been awhile since I've posted and this will be short and sweet.I went to Denver with the Japanese students yesterday! It was super fun but exhausting and only one of them bought a winter coat... but we will get ones for the rest!

1. I'm super worried about my finances. I just booked my tickets to see Reagan next month for the ball and here's what my bills are looking like.
Credit Card Bill: $81.00
Payment for my Ball Gown: $69.65
Alterations for my Ball Gown: $20.00 at least
Airline Tickets: $260.36
Remainder to pay for Glasses: $100.00
TXTING: $20.00
Dir en Grey Concert Tickets: $37... or was it $32.50... well its close to that
Reagan's Christmas Gift: $50-55.00
General Living Expenses: $50.00
FOR AN ESTIMATED GRAND TOTAL of $683.51YIKES!!!!! Because I only get roughly $236.00 every two weeks when I get paid. And currently there is about $115.00 in my bank account period. Needless to say I can't get out of the hole any time soon.

2. ALSO, I miss Reagan... and it upsets me a lot because I know I bother people by talking about him like ALL the time it seems like. But he's my number one man... so he's almost as important as my father.... but he's been really short with me lately I think because I've been so busy but the truth is one of the main reasons I'm working myself into exhaustion is because I miss him so badly that if I'm not busy I will just get depressed. And its sometimes worse when I Skype or talk to him on the phone. So its like I want to talk with him as much as possible but at the same time avoid him so I don't miss him so bitterly. But I haven't told him that because I'm already weak enough... Does that make sense? At least I get to see him next month....

3. Well school is really keeping me busy I'm finding it difficult to keep up at times... but I will just keep working till I get it...

4. I'm having some friend problems too... I just get sick of the way they treat me sometimes....Toodles...

So my host sister from Japan when I was in high school was having a very bad day today and I gave her a call. Since she is now stateside... (Reno Nevada) and I didn't realize how much I missed her until now!

We talked about how she has had a persistant guy from high school keep saying he likes her and she doesn't like him and that was upsetting her, so I tried to give her some advice then she taught me a new word in Japanese! 　It's: 告白　（こくはく） It's like used for a declaration of love!! I was like cool!! And we talked so we both got to practice our language skills, even though I'm a bit intimidated to talk to her still I think speaking a little bit of Japanese at least made her feel more comfortable.

And I talked to her about going to Yamagata and she says "Oh! I can't understand their accent! SOOO strange!" I laughed. She also has picked up some bad words while here and its just barely been a month! So far she's got f***, bitch (which I taught her waay back when), asshole and her new word... cunt... I was like! OH! Don't say that!!!

Anyway it was so nice to talk to her and I hope that she can come stay with me at the end of the semester or something or I can afford to go see her before she goes back to Japan. But as for today I'm hoping I made her day a little less sad.

PS: She also called me slim!! She's soo nice and we joked about being fat from American food and needing to both eat more salads! There is a recent picture of her taken in Nevada!

Tossing and Turning

Once again yesterday night was a bad night... a bad bad one. I had a wonderful time out with everyone (Danielle, Andrew, Daniel, Kaylee, Arlet) at J-drama night, but when I got back and I did some homework for my Composition class that was soo hard I wanted to cry I skyped Reagan and instead of talking to him and making us both happy I ended up sobbing via webcam and just making Reagan sit quietly because he couldn't do anything.

I hate doing that to him because I'm soo certain that when I cry he's worried he did something wrong... like the first time I cried in front of him and then when I was visiting in August I had a bit of a break down because of a little comment he made about my appearence ( the little mole on my left cheek) where I got soo self concious I actually hit his hand away and wouldn't let him touch me. I think it really freaks him out that I'm not totally 100% emotionally stable and he's not sure what to say or do... I just don't want him to start hating me for it, I'm trying to be a stronger person for him and for myself... I am!

But back to the point... I was soo upset last night because university is really wearing on me... between my finances, my job, my schoolwork and trying to be a better more confident person and the perfect girlfriend I'm just feeling like I'm falling seriously behind. I'm sliding down an muddy hill and its raining... It is scaring me. For instance I can't seem to grasp things in my composition class. Today in Japanese for the life of me I couldn't figure out what was going on and then my anxiety for this cultural project (which is a little at ease... the guys actually seem like they want to apply themselves... so it may work) and my composition paper due next week... among everything else I just broke under the weight last night.

Quite honestly I don't even know why I'm going to college for a degree, I mean I don't really want it. I love to learn and I love Japanese its soo interesting but all this extra work... and for what so I can teach for like three to five years and then become a housewife. That is what I WANT, I just want to make a perfect little home for my husband and my family and take pride in my sewing and in my ironing and my cleaning and my home and my cooking. That's all I want but I have to be realistic and it makes me so upset sometimes... its like... why should I even bother.... because my dream is no longer truely socially acceptable.

Truths In Ten!

So MagnificantDebra posted a Ten True Things Meme... and I wanted to do it, however I am only going to tell positive things... I could use a little personal pick me up.

1. I will rarely admit it but I love wandering around in my giant sweatpants (they are an obscene purple color) and a ratty T-shirt... I call it loungewear chic.

2. I really do think its odd that people think I have a lovely smile... well in pictures, I just feel posed but I love to smile and when its candid I couldn't feel more beautiful!

3. I do soo much daydreaming that sometimes I convince myself that whatever I'm dreaming about will be around the next corner.

4. I am a hopeless romantic, I love roses, candlelight, ever lasting love and a white picket fence.

5. My greatest ambition is to one day become a wonderful wife and homemaker for man who I happen love more then anything...

6. I have a weakness for bunny rabbits... (and pandas) Especially mini lops! So cuute!!!

7. Strawberries are my absolute favorite food! I will sit and eat them all day and everyday if I could.

8. I love to bake and make desserts, they are just so delicious and decadent. I love it! So rewarding and no one can truely pass up dessert!

9. I can't wait until the day I can read Beatrix Potter's stories of Peter Rabbit to my child.

10. I have yet to tell this person this... but I am soo thankful that he has shown me that I can once again be getting comfortable in my own skin again, and that not wearing makeup all the time is perfectly okay, I'm still just as beautiful.

The Bad is Always Followed by the GOOD!

So a few days ago I found out the Reagan is going to soon have to make a tough decision. Because of his minor medical condition the USMC wants to "medically retire" him... my impression they are cutting budgets and want to boot out everyone who MIGHT cost them extra money... how rude... but c'est la vie. However if he wants to stay in and his CO and some board or something deem him worthy then he can have a permenant desk job. So the pros and cons of this.

GETTING OUT:
PROS:
-He doesn't deploy!
-He would recieve a large amount in compensation and still get his benefits (GI Bill etc.)
-He could possibly be with me more, as a civilan.

CONS:
-He would have to go to school and I think be wasting time and money figuring out what he wants to do.
-He may not be happy with civilan life.
-He may not find a job.
-I'm not that confident I could fully support his decision...

STAYING IN:
PROs:
-He will continue to have a steady job and income.
-It will be easier for him to get promoted with a different MOS.
-He will be able to have a career and "retire" at 42... which is goal is 45... soo...
-I can fully support his decision without question, and I have confidence of his success.

CONS:
-He may not enjoy his new job as much as infantry.
-The Marines may decide he is again fit for deployment... and who knows what that means.


Regardless, Reagan and I don't have all the information needed to make an educated decision but I ultimately want it to be his decision and for him to do it for the right reasons.


OKAY NOW FOR THE GOOD NEWS:

I Skyped with Reagan last night! It was so wonderful to see him even if we couldn't be right with each other. Its like a date... that we both can have in our PJs. I miss seeing him smile and laugh... or make fishy faces with me! Hopefully this will be a more regular occurence and I won't have to miss him soo much all the time!

Shove It Cinderella!

Funny how things can turn over in a day and bitch slap you in the face.

It's around eleven at night and I should be sound asleep after having talked to Reagan... but no. I'm blogging again. My reason is because I'm angry, upset, depressed, confused and just plain miffed!So what's got my bloomers in a knot you ask? Well Mr. Marine himself of course!

Tonight he told me on good authority that the Marine Corps. Ball is to be held on November 14th this year. A Saturday! That's just fine and dandy... only problem I have class on Friday... and Monday so I would only be able to fly out and stay two nights at best. And because my father is a sort of stick in the mud there is no way I can skip out on classes and flit across the country to play princess for a night... so my trip has to begin AFTER class ends at 4pm... but the only flights I can make... well they cost over $300... at the cheapest. It makes me want to cry soo hard!!!

I don't think Reagan understands how much something like this ball means to me. Yes its selfish of me... but I am human. Its not just a dress up party to booze it up and eat cake. Its status, its important, its solidifying and its pride. It's status because it puts me on the map in his world in more then an informal setting with his buddies. It's important because well, it something I've always wanted to attend and you all should know how important things like balls are to us girls, I can't quite explain it. It solidifies... like a status, it says, yes I do exist I am the woman that supports him and am there to make him the best man that he can possibly be. And lastly its my pride. I almost hate to write about this but I think I should say it so eventually I can tell him... I tried explaining it and well I don't think he got the message.

So, my pride. I am not the most patriotic American out there, but when I decided to date Reagan I wasn't just dating him the wonderful man (though that is the vast majority) I am dating the MARINE. Everything they stand for honor, country, duty, responsiblity, courage, strength, leadership, stability... need I go on? Are all qualities that are VASTLY important to me when it comes to the men I want to be around. If there is one thing I can't stand its people without a mission... and without the Marines I worried that Reagan may just turn out to be one of those people. And I just can't deal with floundering... there has to be a plan. And its like he doesn't really have a clue on reality it seems about what to do after the Marines.... and I'm probably thinking WAAAY too far into the future here but I don't think that's something I could continue supporting... so I can support him now but shouldn't I be reasonable about it and not blow upwards of $500 on a fantastic weekend that won't probably bring me any benefit other then a feel good time?

Regardless, I'm frustrated with him and his lack of thought expression. If he's mad I wish he'd just say it... or if he has an opinon with regards to me or there is something he wants to say then he should just tell me straight up even if it hurts. I'm getting tired of hearing "Whatever Babe", "Nevermind babe." or my personal favorite "I don't care babe." GAH!! It's like "Don't you dare make me claw it out of you GODDAMMIT!"

And finally the last thing that's annoying me.... as usual is MONEY. So pretty much for the second part of my trip and all the while I've been back home Reagan is holding his $1000 credit card bill (most of which involves me) over my head. Which is exactly what I was afraid would happen after he insisted on covering the rooms. We could have gone dutch that's totally fine with me. And he wanted to eat out at nice places almost the whole time! Iwould have been fine with one lovely meal and PB&J with juice boxes for the rest... but no! I swear he wouldn't have that! And I didn't say anything because he seemed so adamit about taking me to various places and doing various things... I was afraid that finances were gonna bite me in the ass... and they are and I'd offered to help him with the bill all that I can but the answer to that is "No, babe, I'll manage... but GAWD you're expensive!" A vicious cycle....Okay... I think I'm done ranting now... at least for the moment.So Dov you can stop stalking your LJ and read, contemplate and comment.

To The Coast And Back

My trip was absolutely wonderful, but there was so much to talk about that I don’t really know where to begin… so pretty much a synopsis of the highlights should be sufficient.
I arrived in Raleigh right on time (5:10pm EST) on Tuesday which was really nice. The flight was long and I couldn’t help but fidget for the last thirty minutes of the flight. The airport was surprisingly small so I didn’t have any trouble getting down to where Reagan was going to pick me up but the silly man was waiting in a different spot then he said so he snuck up behind me and I nearly bopped him in the nose when he hugged me from behind. We ended up then driving around town for nearly an hour to find somewhere to eat we ALWAYS seem to get lost when we are together… but we settled on Outback Steakhouse…. one bowl of clam chowder and a strawberry smoothie later…. I was nearly passed out in the passenger seat of his Honda SI… praying I wouldn’t ruin the upholstery. Sad but true. I felt bad because I had promised him I would be full of energy and there I was feeling ill. But he didn’t seem to mind too much. The hotel was absolutely wonderful! After the two hour drive it was wonderful to stay in the Presidential Suite…. which was a pleasant surprise to say the least and we both enjoyed it very much!

Wednesday and Thursday were pretty nice and easy… we laid in bed till mid morning then spent the day in town and on base. Which I don’t know why he complains so much, Camp Lejeune is actually a very lovely base, with all the old style brick architecture and landscaping and such. But I guess since he’s there all the time it’s a bore. Seeing his barracks was an interesting experience. It was much smaller and arranged very differently then I’d originally thought… and not as clean (lol) but well they are men after all. I got to try on or at least poke at his gear. The helmet was SUPER heavy and so were the flak and Kevlar vest… I don’t know how he wears it on those humps of his. It was also really nice to meet all the men he works with they were really nice (even if his roommates were probably a bit crude) but they were charming none the less. I still can’t stop myself from puffing up a little bit with pride when I think of Reagan as a Marine. He works soo hard and I’m soo proud of him, even if he isn’t!!!! Anyway, in the evenings Reagan and I went out for dinner and wrapped things up with a nice dinner in a restaurant in town and some bubble baths in the whirlpool in our room. I think bubble baths are probably my favorite times with him. Its just so perfect to relax in the warm water and talk to each other and the only things we have to worry about are the bubbles running low or the water getting cold. I most definitely miss those few hours sitting in the tub getting prune-y fingers with him, perhaps sometime we can have bubble baths every night….

Anyway we spend Friday through Sunday in Myrtle Beach. We got lost on the drive AGAIN… cause Reagan and his silly GPS just can’t work well together… but we eventually made it in one piece. It was nice to be near the ocean again it made the muggy North Carolina weather a little more bareable. We stayed at the Sheraton which was another lovely hotel. (We really caught some deals on hotels!) We managed to see a major portion of the sites. The Ripley’s attractions… like the mirror maze… I adored the aquarium! I love them soo much, such beautiful places… we shopped until I was sure Reagan was ready to throw me over the rail at the Boardwalk! We even had time to go to the beach, I got sand everywhere… as usual!

On Saturday night we celebrated our sixth month anniversary a little early (It won’t be until the end of the month though…). We had a lovely diner at the Hard Rock… despite Reagan’s constant complaints… but he was the one who said “I wanna take you to a nice dinner… you know just the two of us…” And he even opted for the location we could have eaten elsewhere… but anyway… back to the point. Dinner was really nice and he had a wonderful gift for me….A pink rose preserved in lacquer and 24 karat gold…. soo beautiful! I felt bad cause I only managed to wear one of his favorite styles of lingerie as a gift for him that night… but I guess it is the thought that counts.

My last day in North Carolina was too short and came all too quickly and from the moment I woke up in Reagan’s arms till the time I was at the airport I was fighting back tears, Reagan told me to stop sniffling… but it didn’t help that he had to remind me he would be heading to Bridgeport soon for what I guess you would call pre-deployment training… well either way the flight home was a long one .

So… that’s really all I can say… I’ve left some of the colorful portions out… so if you want to hear all the hilarity… give me a buzz… cause for some reason blogging in more detail about more isn’t making me any happier…

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I hope to see him sooner... because its getting harder to say goodbye....

For Some Reason...

I attempted to work on my North Carolina trip blog today but it just didn't happen... I wrote probably five sentences and just started crying.... I think I'm soo overly hormonal this month its gonna kill me.

Yes I will get around to it... sometime... but for some reason talking about it doesn't bother me it just makes me laugh and smile... maybe its because who ever I'm talking to is right there. So if you wanna know what I did and hear all about it. Call me, or we will have lunch sometime and it will be nice to visit and talk.

I just can work up to writing it... and gaah! I don't know why! Blogging normally makes me feel better.

I think I 'm going to take a nap before dinner... cause I'm just not in a happy mood right now...

Lookie What Came!

While I was in North Carolina my BODYLINE order came in and my textbooks for my American Lit. class came as well!

I really like the BODYLINE skirt except for the bow which is actually offset so I'm taking it off and making a headbow! WOOT!
Also I have new glasses! YEAH!

PS: BIIIIG NORTH CAROLINA POST coming in the next day or two it makes me cry when I try to write about the wonderful time I had and how much I miss Reagan.... deployment is going to be miserable... but I'll think about that tomorrow....

PPS: Still waiting on the following packages-Kawaii Craving Order-Commissioned JD dress

OH NUU! I Did A Bad Thing!

Yeah... not only did I order a lolita outfit... I ordered it from (dun dun dun dunnna!) BODYLINE... yes yes now before you all shoot me.... This is what I ordered.... it gets something off my wishlist....

I mean I guess it isn't too bad.... a bag and skirt for $58.... and I actually really like this print... I think I may take the bow off the front of the skirt if possible and make it into a headpiece.... what do you all think.... a whole outfit for under $60... I'm also looking at buying a simple white skirt... for like $30, its all white so I'm going to get a cute design to embroider on it... I was thinking a kitty or a bunny with some flowers... anyway but perhaps she will go down on the price or knock off the shipping.... we shall see.... cause its a cute skirt but I guess since I ordered this it might be good if I didn't buy it but we will see how low she goes.

So I also just ordered this! Now Phen and I can twin!!! WOOO!!! Total of $36 Shipping included!

PS: So I'm waiting on the following packages:

-Commissioned Jesus Diamante replica (yet to be shipped)

-BODYLINE Order

-Kawaii Craving Order

PPS: I saw Janora and Katie at Ren Fest on Saturday! Katie looks adorable in sweet by the WAY! And Janora I loved the "Peasent Lolita" It was really nice to see you! See ya at the tea!

My Life According To The Wallflowers

Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think! Repost as "my life according to (band name)" then tag someone to do it too.


Pick Your Artist:
The Wallflowers (Probably my favorite English singing band)

Are you a male or female:Angel on My Bike

Describe yourself:Nearly Beloved

How do you feel:I Wish I Felt Nothing

Describe where you currently live:Here In Pleasantville

If you could go anywhere, where would you go:The Beautiful Side of Somewhere… And I’ll, See You When I Get There

Your favorite form of transportation:Mourning Train
Your best friend was/is:Three Marlenas

You and your best friends are:Laughing Out Loud

What's the weather like:Letters from the Wasteland

Favourite time of day:All Things Are New Again

If your life was a TV show, what would it be called:How Good It Can Get

What is life to you:Murder 101

Your relationship:Feels Like Summer Again

Your Fear:Too Late To Quit

What is the best advice you have to give:
Everybody Out of The Water

Thought for the Day:If You Never Got Sick...

How I would like to die:Up From Under

My soul's present condition:The Passenger

My motto:God Don’t Make Lonely Girls.

((This was actually a lot of fun to do! And check out The Wallflowers if you haven't. Bob Dylan's son Jakob sings lead... but not only that the music is just really good... or rather I really enjoy it. Lots of different images and emotions for me))

TAGGED: MagnificantDebra

Another Day Down!

So I had a day out with my mom and sister today. I dressed casual hime today (puff sleeve chocolate sweater, skinny jeans, heels hairbow, and pearls) We did a lot of shopping... like at the grocery store.... and such. We went to the theater to see G-Force... it was "cute" but not really worth the $9 in 3D.


I also got my hair cut today... see above this picture actually looks a tad Stepford Wife, but I like the new do and it will tease up for hime SUPER well! The layers give it nice volume so I'm happy and I will give it a trial run after my trip to North Carolina. I did my makeup a little different I'm slowly working up to my full hime gyaru makeup potienal I don't want to scare myself... at least it's not manba makeup!





However despite a new do, (which usually makes me feel really happy) my mood is wearing... I suppose I'm just tired from a whole day out and ready to curl up with my Marine Bear, a movie or some Korean Drama and let the next four and a half days slip by... this time on Tuesday Reagan and I will be holding hands in the car on the way from Raleigh to Camp Lejeune... I can't wait!





Anywhos... I also bought some hair extensions at Sally's, well I bought the wefts and am sewing them to the clips myself probably tomorrow so you will get to see the extensions but no full hime updo just yet I think I will save that for after my trip to North Carolina... which I should probably be packing for.

SHH! Don't Tell Anyone!

This is sorta inspired by MaginficantDebra and her secret posts... that and I got an email that reminded me of it.

Back in the day... like since 7th or 8th grade I wrote fanfiction... you know write stories about my favorite characters from my favorite shows doing things that they didn't do or wouldn't do in the show... I wrote like dozens of them (32 I think) with a few hundred reviews and more hits... the ones I think that were the most popular were the many that I wrote for the long running series JAG (which is still one of my favorite shows by the way... even though its over.). ANYWAY! So I got a review for a story today... here's the kicker... I wrote it roughly FIVE years ago... called 2ply JAG... and I just smiled that someone is still getting joy from them!

"littledemonpixie,
A new review/comment has been submitted to your story.
Story: 2ply JAG Chapter: 3.
HAHAHAHA PMSL. I was trying to tell my mum about this but couldnt because Iwas laughing so much,LMFAO My mum loves JAG, she got me into it. HILARIOUS. I usually just readthe romance ones, but this omg hahahhahahaYou did good. I couldnt breathe with the unscrewing of the admiral's chair.PMSFL! ROFL. Welldone on this, really. I always struggle to write comedy, but this was fantastic!!!"


So it made me smile long story short... and if you'd like to read what my mind cooked up... despite its perhaps poor writing style... here's my FF.net profile. I haven't written ANYTHING in forever... but perhaps if I start watching something that inspires me I may take it up again... I have a new series of Fullmetal Alchemist to watch soo we will see...

http://www.fanfiction.net/~littledemonpixie

Anyway that's all for now!

Lolita in the 16th Street

Well last night I went out with Danielle (Phen) in lolita! It was super fun! Even though we got confused on how to catch the lightrail back home! We went the wrong way first and then had to go all the way to the other end, because the F Line stops running at 9pm.... GRRR!

Anyway! So we spent the early evening shopping and just looking around and talking. We had several people ask us why we were dressed up... and as always our answer is "Just because!" *giggles* We also have many "point n' stares" especially middle aged wifes with their husbands... hilarious! I wish they would talk to us or ask of instead of just staring... gosh we don't bite!

We also heard some of the funniest things called to us, a couple were a bit rude.... When we first got there we heard some guy start shouting from across the street, "Hey! HEY! Dorthy! Why you look like that Dorthy!" (Ummm we look nothing like Judy Garland in the Wizard of Oz...) And later on another guy, shouted "Hey Bo Peep! Where your sheep at?! HEY!!! Muffit! Come sit on my tuffet!" Yes it was rather rude with vulgar implications but probably one of the funniest ones we'd ever heard!

However there was one guy who was just charming! He was working in one of the hotels around there I think, and when he saw us he goes, "Oh! Y'all are so adorable! Why you dressed up?" we told him. "He goes, "Oh really?! Well I'd love to just whip my outfit out and put it on!" He was joking about actually wearing lolita but he was just fun!

After walking and shopping and walking some more we went to the Cheesecake Factory! We always wondered why it is so dark in that restaruant?? Hmm... anyway, the hostess as she seated us kept looking back to stare at us and she did it so much I was pretty sure she'd strain her neck if she did it too fast! So we sat and enjoyed the bread with some water and then split a GIANT plate of nachos with chicken. They were delicious! Order the Factory Nachos! Then we had Lemon Raspberry Cream Cheesecake! The description was like "Raspberries, Lemon mousse, creamy cheesecake, vanilla cake and raspberry lady fingers..." OH! IT WAS SOOO PERFECT AND DELICIOUS!!! I think I have a new favorite!

Unfortunately we forgot to document the event but I do have a picture of my outfit before I left.