Dog Years

Today I spent a sunny afternoon on the CSU campus with my dog of ten and a half years (That's seventy five in Doggy Years). Aside from enjoying the grass and the springtime sunshine, I had a few good laughs at the openmouthed stares as we strolled through campus.

My dog Jenny (VII Trails Guinevere if you call her by her breeder name)is about 150 lbs and comes up to midcalf. She's a big girl on the outside, but her heart is even bigger. The reason for our get together today was as sad one. Jenny is really really sick, she has cancer, and as a family, we decided that surgery while a possibility is just not the most loving option because the odds are against us. So for the next week or so, Jenny will be living out her last days with my family in the forests of Colorado, playing on the property with our other furry family (Ella and Walker), spending evenings chewing on a bone or snoozing at the foot of my father's big chair.

I was heartbroken to see her get into the back of the stationwagon today when it was time to head home, and when I was saying my goodbyes I got her full loving attention while I cried a little rubbing her ears (her favorite petting spot). We as a family have had sick dogs before, but Jenny is really the only one that I can fully remember growing up with. When I wanted to do dogshowing she was the one that trotted along beside me in the practice ring and held her poses like she was supposed to. We went on walks through the woods in the summer, and she kept my cold feet warm in the winter. We spent weekends in costume at the Renaissance Fair and many days in the grass or the snow just playing around. I will miss our grumble, growl, grumble wars, she always won of course.

It's been a blissful ten years, and I'm torn to see God's decision for her finally becoming visable. I just hope that where she goes after this will be just as happy for her as all the years my family and I have loved her.

I'm going to miss her so much, it is going to be very hard for me, because I won't be there when it's time for her to go, but I know this is for the best and I will always be greatful for the years I was allowed to spend with her.

You will be missed Jenny, and you are still my number one four pawed Princess!!!!!

Curveball...

So I sorta fought with the Marine on Sunday night (okay it was all me telling him somethings that are pretty bad that have been on my mind in the past few days) And I've been a total wreck. It's now Tuesday, I haven't slept in 48 hours, or spoken to him on the phone and I haven't been able to keep any food down. Yesterday afternoon I feel asleep in my Syntax class and felt horrible, I never do that.

I'm doing my best to still look and give the personna that I am at my best, but its failing miserably, if we don't talk soon I may be making a trip to the hospital if my stomach doesn't stop rejecting everything.

I hate fighting so much. I hate when I fight, I hate when others fight (parents etc) it does literally stress me to the point where I'm physically sick.

J-CUP And Back to The Daily Grind

Yesterday was the Statewide Japan Cup competition so I'm sure you all want the run down.
My team and I studied our butts off this semester. We walked into the prelims with our heads held high, studied and prepared, (well I didn't feel prepared but who does?) and we fell down, hard. We lost to the other teams with our lowly 40 points, it was embarrassing, and I could barely face Seta and Beecken-sensei's when we walked out of the room, let alone my senpai who trained me. Many of the questions were the grammar or the other teams just beat us to the bell. And my mom and sister even came to watch. I know everyone is proud but there is a little bit of me that feels like I let them all down. It was hard to fight back the tears and I'm even a bit weepy now just writing about it.

However I didn't have long to dwell on that, our other teams did really awesome, two of them made it two the finals so I couldn't stop smiling after that. I did my best and did my part and I feel that as a team it was good. I helped the finals teams study which paid off, since CSU took home 1st AND 2nd place!I

As for me now that I've thought about it, even though we did miserable, we showed up and tried our hardest and I LEARN SOOOOOO MUCH! I know all these things and I DON'T need a competition to tell me that I'm amazing, I realy accomplished a feat in these past few months and I can't wait to help future Japanese students do the same. Maybe teaching and learning really is my true passion. I get so excited just thinking of the idea of sharing the knowledge that I worked so hard to gain.

Anyway after the competition the real fun started! We had a HUGE celebratory dinner at Sonoda's. Everyone sat in the back room with three big tables and we just ate sushi and Japanese food and the table ordered FIVE of these gaint alcoholic punches, (which I drank half of one because they weren't carding... but felt a bit bad later because Beecken sensei is pretty strict about underage drinking, I need to be more careful in the future, but I think she let it slide because of J-Cup. Daniel, Sydney and I had a great time, they were hamming it up and I was laughing my ass off. Those two never ceases to fill my life with humor! What good friends! After paying the table's probabaly close to $1000 bill, we headed to DJ's Karaoke.... and it was super fun I got to sing some of my favorite songs, but at the same time I wish we had gotten two rooms because 26 people in one room was really hot and we didn't get to sing much. That and while all my classmates are great I'm sure, some of the people I would have rather not been singing with, I really love karoke but I like to do it with my good friends. It's just more personal and special that way..... I just feelng that it would have been better, cause the room is so hot that half of us were standing outside looking through the viewing window waiting for our song so it could have been more fun. Towards the end of the night I went out and talked to Arlet and Derek, and had part of a Black Stone and a bit of Soju, I actually wouldn't have minded just heading to a quiet club or lounge having a couple of smokes and just talking with my near and dears, by that point in the night.

Alas it was nearly midnight when we headed home, I ended up sleeping on Daniel's shoulder most of the way... which I feel bad for... and a couple other things regarding him, make me a little confused, but it's probably just the tiredness talking... I may address it at a later date.

So anyway all in all a SUPER EPIC Saturday, and to everyone, my teammates Phen and Syd, I love you both, and to my great teachers and friends,

本当にありがとうございます！！！！！！！！

PS: NOW ITS TIME TO FOCUS ON MY DIET!

Just a do & Coordinate!

So yesterday I had some time to get myself Galed up! Which with Gab's help the night before (by putting my hair in to wonderful pincurls! I could sleep while curling me hair! Finally!) I ended up with some very cute results yesterday and many people said so! ENJOY!

PS: Sorry no falsies though cause I was pressed for time and I had a long day that included the gym... not a good place for lashes. LOL

And my button heels(the ones I'm wearing) left big black marks on my white diamond tights!! NUUU!!! I'm soo sad! they were so cute! They are sorta ruined now...

Time Flys!

Well today is March 28th. One year ago today I started dating Reagan! I'm amazed at how time has flown! So much has happened in that time! And I feel that the next year or how ever long I get to spend with him will be just as wonderful!

Looking back I am thankful to him for always being there and supporting me he is toooo good to me! Or when he's pestering me to stay on top of things... like my school work or my diet... ugh.

I'm thankful for his patience, cause lets face it I can be a pretty big bitch sometimes, or a weepy over emotional train collision.

I'm thankful that he is slowly shaping me into a stronger person. He doesn't notice I'm sure, but I'm so happy that with him I can begin to repair my confidence and pick of the pieces of my self esteem.

The biggest challenge for us... I would have to say is the distance. They weren't kidding when they said absence makes the heart grow fonder... everytime I get to see him, makes me giddy hours before and when he's with me or I'm with him, NOTHING can rain on our parade! I'm thankful that the powers that be allowed us to be together four times in this time. I am selfish and wish with all my heart for more time with him (like every friggin day), but I know that I signed up for the distance, so I want to continue to be strong for both of us.

My favorite times: I think the best memories I have of us together is when we are walking. It seems to be a thing we like to do. On his first visit when we were at the 16th street and just strolled up and down in the chilly March night looking at the city lights... and him suddenly dancing when a bag pipe player appeared on the street. Or walking through CSU campus and "hunting for squirells", in downtown Myrtle Beach, or walking through the Denver Museum of Nature and Science. But walking is so wonderful I think because it gives us time to slow down and really just enjoy the other's company, all the while feeling the closeness that we don't get very often. I have to say I think that holding hands is actually pretty darn cool!!!

The thing I miss the most when we are apart: His hugs, whether its a big Papa Bear hug that lifts me off the ground, or the one armed "I'm a cool badass tough Marine hug" or when I've had a bad day or upset, the hug on the couch or wrapped in the blankets, that's not too tight but is still strong and protective, or the hug at the airport when its time to say goodbye again... yes I even miss that one.... Whenever he holds me I feel safe and that is the best feeling in the world.

Well enough mush from me I suppose just thought I would post a little bit of recollection for today since it is our anniversary. I hope we stay strong and can continue to grow together even if we are 1,873 miles apart for seven months of the year.

PS: To all my friends and USMC Gals out there, thank you for the support in someway you help make our relationship solid, or make it run smoothly because you make me worry less. LOL! Stay strong and Semper Fi!

Mitsu Thank You and a DO!

Well today I had a tiinny bit of time on my hands when it came to getting ready and I did my hair and I really love how it turned out! Its a bit of a messy look and I"m still gettin the layers under control, buuuut.

THANK YOU MITSU (even though you most likely don't read my blog I read yours!!!) And as such I tried her bang tutorials and on the first go around it work super well or at least I think so! What do you all think?!

So pictures! And then I have to study for Japan Cup!

Early Snowbird!

Well it snowed a ton here in FoCo last night and behold this morning Gab and I were coming back from Breakfast and we saw this! According to Gab it was legit cause it had butresses and everything! WOO! Go college! And we got to see it early when there weren't a ton of people! That's what we get for being up with the sun!